Random shit I spout into my blog to get it off my chest.
I don’t think I’ll ever get over geo. Everything relates back to her. 4/5 months down the line she’s still the person I dream about in my sleep, that I crave to feel her next to me when I wake up. That I indulge my mind with before I go to sleep.
I still say goodnight to her as it close my eyes to fall into the darkness or beauty of the dream world.
My body aches for her to smile at me once more but I know that will never suffice. Cause once more would never be enough. I have a scar across my main blood pumping apparatus in my body.
The secret is I don’t want it to heal. I don’t want to lose those memories because they’re the only bits of light I have left of her,
When she used to call me a fanny when I said something cute.
Her eyes which did the telling off look when I did stupid shit
Her constant smile when I was with her
Her breathing as she fell asleep on my chest as we watched a movie
How shed still try to cuddle up to me even though we were swelteringly hot haha
I think I found my soulmate and I let it all fuck up right I front of me cause of her going to university and me moving a little further away.